Prayer and Songs
Work has been busy for everyone at Region Ten. Due to VA budget deficit of $4.9 BILLION, they are cutting back; they are not hiring positions that a much needed and work as increased for almost all my co-workers including myself. There is even a talk about possibility to lay off workers; pray that it doesn't come to this; everyone at work, including the managers are on pins and needles. I've been working hard these past few weeks, getting reports done and turned in and trying to get things ahead of schedule for when I am out on medical leave. This was one of those weeks I have been super busy; not just a work but at the house as well, cleaning my room and other such responsibilities. Today was Community Worship for the members of the worship team. Originally, I had told my worship director that I may not be able to make it tonight due to the fact that I wasn't sure how busy I'd be today. Today, God was putting on my heart to lay aside things and go to worship team, community worship. I came home from work, grabbed a snack and headed out the door and drove the 45 min to Harrisonburg; during this time I was thinking about my upcoming surgery.
Community worship was awesome. We shared our own experience of what worshiping leading meant. It was a blessing to hear from various people of what it meant to them. We sang songs. Oh, how each song we sang ministered to me and was perfect for me. As each day passes, I am struggling with my heart. I'm not scared of the surgery; yet I am nervous because it's only human to be nervous. I'm questioning God in why I have grown up (and continue to grow) up facing sickness, surgeries, etc. It usually comes hardest during the times I am sick or the times I do have surgery; but today was made clear again to me during our worship time as a group. We sang of God's kindness and love, we sang of how we need to come to God with open heart, mind, and clean hands. I was reminded of how God leads us step by step and how He rejoices over us--we just need to have a quiet heart to hear His rejoicing over us.
I was again reminded how blessed I am with so many friends who love me and care for me. I shared with team tonight of what exactly the doctors will do next week. I shared with them about my heart. I was asked to sit in the middle and I was encircled by members of the team. You all know that I'm claustrophobic, but some how, I didn't feel that way when I was surrounded and felt the hands of my brothers and sisters on me; all I felt was LOVE. I was raised in a church who never practice this; they didn't believe in "laying hands on people." But as I got older, I realized the power of it; they don't have the power to heal you, but it's the thought that the people who touch you, love you, and pray for you, and that their prayer is flowing from their mouths into you. I didn't feel anything miraculous, just Godly love. After the prayer time tonight, I was hugged by many people, encouraging me to stay focused on God and run to Him, and reminders that I am being in their prayers.
I have an immediate family; my dad, my mom, my sister, my brother-in law, nieces, grandparents, uncles, cousins, aunts......but I have another family: the Family of God; and it was tonight that I felt the love and presence. I'm truly blessed to have wonderful people in my life who both love me and care for me.
Thank you Jesus for my biological family and my spiritual family who all love me and care for me. Help me not loose focus of Your love for me and Your never-failing will in my life
Community worship was awesome. We shared our own experience of what worshiping leading meant. It was a blessing to hear from various people of what it meant to them. We sang songs. Oh, how each song we sang ministered to me and was perfect for me. As each day passes, I am struggling with my heart. I'm not scared of the surgery; yet I am nervous because it's only human to be nervous. I'm questioning God in why I have grown up (and continue to grow) up facing sickness, surgeries, etc. It usually comes hardest during the times I am sick or the times I do have surgery; but today was made clear again to me during our worship time as a group. We sang of God's kindness and love, we sang of how we need to come to God with open heart, mind, and clean hands. I was reminded of how God leads us step by step and how He rejoices over us--we just need to have a quiet heart to hear His rejoicing over us.
I was again reminded how blessed I am with so many friends who love me and care for me. I shared with team tonight of what exactly the doctors will do next week. I shared with them about my heart. I was asked to sit in the middle and I was encircled by members of the team. You all know that I'm claustrophobic, but some how, I didn't feel that way when I was surrounded and felt the hands of my brothers and sisters on me; all I felt was LOVE. I was raised in a church who never practice this; they didn't believe in "laying hands on people." But as I got older, I realized the power of it; they don't have the power to heal you, but it's the thought that the people who touch you, love you, and pray for you, and that their prayer is flowing from their mouths into you. I didn't feel anything miraculous, just Godly love. After the prayer time tonight, I was hugged by many people, encouraging me to stay focused on God and run to Him, and reminders that I am being in their prayers.
I have an immediate family; my dad, my mom, my sister, my brother-in law, nieces, grandparents, uncles, cousins, aunts......but I have another family: the Family of God; and it was tonight that I felt the love and presence. I'm truly blessed to have wonderful people in my life who both love me and care for me.
Thank you Jesus for my biological family and my spiritual family who all love me and care for me. Help me not loose focus of Your love for me and Your never-failing will in my life
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