A JOYFUL NOISE

I am going to be honest. Honest to you all and honest with myself and my Lord. This is a very hard thing for me to write, but I wanted to share it with you all. For some reason, this evening I decided to take a good hard look in the mirror at myself since the surgery. I was noticing what was done and what more has to be done in the future. As I pulled my hair back, to my horror, I saw it. I saw something I never really did see (or maybe I saw before but didn't care) before. It made me upset. It made me angry. My ears are lopsided. Yes, my right ear hangs about 2 inches lower than my left. Now, I did know for the longest time that my ears weren't in symmetry, but for some reason....today, it hit me harder than it ever had. I'm not sure if it's the drugs I'm on or my being "bored" or what. Certainly Satan had a BIG GRIP on me. I've never let my looks affect my way of thinking or let other people's commen...

It's past 3a.m. and I can't seem to fall asleep. I started to sing (in my head) one of my favorite songs: Jesus I am Resting, Resting. I know the lyrics by heart; and I know several versions/tunes to this song. Each tune brings it's on special meaning; but one thing never changes......We need to constantly rest and trust in Jesus. He made us who we are; we are love Jesus and rest in the fact that Jesus' love is unfailing and unfaltering. Jesus, I am resting, resting, In the joy of what Thou art; I am finding out the greatness Of Thy loving heart. Thou hast bid me gaze upon Thee, And Thy beauty fills my soul, For by Thy transforming power, Thou hast made me whole. Refrain ' Jesus, I am resting, resting, In the joy of what Thou art; I am finding out the greatness Of Thy loving heart. O, how great Thy loving kindness, Vaster, broader than the sea! O, how marvelous Thy goodness, Lavished all on me! Yes, I rest in Thee, Belovèd, Know what we...

I had surgery this past Thursday, March 17. It's one of those never ending surgeries I go through to take out some of the neurofibroma (NF). I've gone through hundreds of surgery (literally!) since I was a child--no, since I was a baby. It doesn't get any easier. The older I get I find it harder and harder to recuperate and get my energy back. Dr Gampper revised my scar on my right side of my face because it was pulling downward and becoming very uncomfortable. He also removed some NF that was developing underneath my ear. They were suppose to open my nasal passage but they didn't do it this time and I'm not too sure why. My surgery was about 2 hrs long. I got wheeled into the OR around 2:30 and woke up in the recovery room around 6:30. I got released to go home the same day and got home around 9pm. Recovery is going well so far even though I'm in a lot of pain. It hurts to move my mouth (whether it is talking or eating). I've been...

Prayers are so powerful. I'm so thankful we can talk to God through our prayers; I'm thankful to be able to share prayer requests with others and to pray for others. This past week has been a week of prayer and thoughts going out to friends and family. --prayers for those who are recovering from surgery --prayers for those who suffer with severe pain --prayers for a couple who lost their son in a tragic car accident --prayers for those who need direction in their life --prayers for those whose job is unstable or who needs a job --prayers of praise and thanksgiving I can go on and on.....prayers are so powerful and a great tool to minister to one another. So I ask you, will you please pray for me? For the past 3 weeks, the pain in my lower right abdomen has intensified. I've had days when I am in so much pain that I can barely get myself going in the morning and all I can really do is lay on the couch. Pain affects my energy level and sometimes my energy is so lo...