A JOYFUL NOISE

One of the things we automatically do as human beings is that we put ourselves in to a rut….a schedule.    We get out of bed, we head for our morning cup of coffee or tea with breakfast,   wash up for the day and head to our morning chores (or whatever order you put it in)..    For years, this has been my pattern.    My day would start off with coffee in my hand, heading then heading out to door to work or school.   Maybe I would throw in some ingredients in a crockpot for dinner so it will be ready when I would return from work..    Well, as you all know, the “rut of life” changed back in 2010 when I became ill and unable to work. “WHY GOD….WHY ME?” was (and honestly at times STILL IS) my constant question.    Questions after questions encompassed my brain….EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.   It continues to encompass my brain as I continue to physically decline with a great amount of other physical issues showing up….increased pain ...

All of us has gone through times when we feel as if our whole body goes numb due to something. There is physical numbness.  Numbing because of surgery a shot or whatever.  Maybe your mouth after getting a tooth extraction or a cavity filled.   I know with me I've gone through so many surgeries that the nerves where the surgery site gets cut takes a good while to regrow, and that area is somewhat numb; I can feel some, but not a lot. Then there is emotional numbness.   So much heartache and maybe accompanied with physical pain.   It's a "feeling" you just can't describe, thus why you call it a "numbness".   People ask me "how are you?" and all I can say is "ok, I guess".   People say "are you REALLY OKAY".  and all I can say "I don't know, I really can't explain how I feel." Then, as I was reminded today, there is such thing as spiritual numbness.   That numbness where you WANT ...