What I don't Understand.......
......is why after almost 2 weeks of "pain free" (meaning I can deal with the pain with regular pain medication), I am in a lot of pain again, my GI flare up is bad and I'm about to loose my mind with the amount of work I have to get sent in to Medicaid for my clients. I returned to work on 4/9. This past week was a full work week for me; I was off Tuesday for my many medical appointments but ended up working this past Saturday to 1. off set my time off I took Tuesday because I had no time to cover, and 2. to help me get caught up in my work load. I'm still behind and stressed.
My orthopedic doctor (Dr. Smith) said that pain is expected for several months but to just take my anti-inflammatory drug (Naperlan) and gave me light duty work (no lifting, pushing, pulling, overhead work, etc); however, my chiropractor thinks differently. Because of my recent accident 3 weeks ago, my neck has been more sore than usual. He said it is very very common for neck injuries to hurt more as weeks go by. He explained it in terms of "you gotta go up the mountain before coming down); which I guess makes sense. My Chiropractor, Dr. Robson knows my neck hurts bc he can tell by the way I favor one side than the other side; and then he said since the neck bone is connected to the collar bone/shoulder cuff bone (which is my surgery site), it too will cause a flare up in my pain. He said that if I had not had my accident I would not have this much discomfort AGAIN! I'm really tired of pain and medication and which I can just push a button to where I can be pain free.
In addition, my GI issues has been flaring up again. I eat---I get sick. I am okay with "light" foods such as fruits/veggies, chicken/brooth, etc...but a full meal means a sick stomach. I can handle probably a toddler size portion of food at a time before I get sick. I am planning to call my GI doctor for a re-check from 2-1-/2 yrs ago (my last flare up). I'm not looking forward to it because it means taking even more time off work and I worry that Human Resource will give me a hard time (as they are doing now b/c of my restrictions Dr. Smith put me on). I tell you, it's stressing me out stress isn't good for my body. My friend Pam, told me NOT to stress so much because it will cause more pain; she encouraged me to pray to God and asking "why" is not wrong. I'm asking, I'm praying, I'm seeking............I hear nothing. I'm discouraged.
Friday afternoon I called my worship pastor, Burress to tell him that I honestly did not think I was ready to return to Worship Team despite feeling "ok" on Wedns practice (I thought I was just tired and hurting from a long day at work). Friday was horrible for me where I was in so much pain and couldn't take "good" meds since I had to work; I went home and took my good meds and relaxed. But anyhow, I explained to him my situation and told him I honestly didn't think I could endure being in church that long or standing that long and that I was afraid that the escalation of my pain would be a distraction while helping lead worship. I (and my friend Carrie who was to sing alto) did all we could to find a replacement. Thank God, my friend Amy C, FB me and asked me if I still needed to find someone to sing for me. She told me that she would be more than willing to fill in for me despite her being on team the following week. I had a good talk with her and she really seemed genuinely concerned for me. You see, she's been a surgical nurse for a long time. She told me honestly how she felt and felt that I should have stayed a day or two in the hospital due to the bone surgery and amount of blood lost. I could even tell in her voice she was just as frustrated as I was and she told me that at this point of recovery, I should not be going through this much pain and especially a set back in pain. Actually, my mom and dad was surprised I only had to go through the "office" surgery site instead of RMH, and it's not as good since there's always possibilities that something could go wrong and there is a possibility that they won't have the equipment to help in case (God forbid) goes wrong. It was comforting knowing that someone besides myself and my parents seemed it to be a bit "risky" for an office operation; but the practice was so convincing, we went ahead w/ plans, plus I found out that Dr. Smith doesn't have much privileges in RMH
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I am really feeling discouraged along with feeling much pain. I have to go to work but by mid day I feeling more fatigue then ever, even on light duty.
As of now, I just need to relax, do what I can and trust in God's provision. I told Burress that I may just need another month to recuperate. Hopefully by June I will be better. I just need prayer for endurance and restoration from pain.
My orthopedic doctor (Dr. Smith) said that pain is expected for several months but to just take my anti-inflammatory drug (Naperlan) and gave me light duty work (no lifting, pushing, pulling, overhead work, etc); however, my chiropractor thinks differently. Because of my recent accident 3 weeks ago, my neck has been more sore than usual. He said it is very very common for neck injuries to hurt more as weeks go by. He explained it in terms of "you gotta go up the mountain before coming down); which I guess makes sense. My Chiropractor, Dr. Robson knows my neck hurts bc he can tell by the way I favor one side than the other side; and then he said since the neck bone is connected to the collar bone/shoulder cuff bone (which is my surgery site), it too will cause a flare up in my pain. He said that if I had not had my accident I would not have this much discomfort AGAIN! I'm really tired of pain and medication and which I can just push a button to where I can be pain free.
In addition, my GI issues has been flaring up again. I eat---I get sick. I am okay with "light" foods such as fruits/veggies, chicken/brooth, etc...but a full meal means a sick stomach. I can handle probably a toddler size portion of food at a time before I get sick. I am planning to call my GI doctor for a re-check from 2-1-/2 yrs ago (my last flare up). I'm not looking forward to it because it means taking even more time off work and I worry that Human Resource will give me a hard time (as they are doing now b/c of my restrictions Dr. Smith put me on). I tell you, it's stressing me out stress isn't good for my body. My friend Pam, told me NOT to stress so much because it will cause more pain; she encouraged me to pray to God and asking "why" is not wrong. I'm asking, I'm praying, I'm seeking............I hear nothing. I'm discouraged.
Friday afternoon I called my worship pastor, Burress to tell him that I honestly did not think I was ready to return to Worship Team despite feeling "ok" on Wedns practice (I thought I was just tired and hurting from a long day at work). Friday was horrible for me where I was in so much pain and couldn't take "good" meds since I had to work; I went home and took my good meds and relaxed. But anyhow, I explained to him my situation and told him I honestly didn't think I could endure being in church that long or standing that long and that I was afraid that the escalation of my pain would be a distraction while helping lead worship. I (and my friend Carrie who was to sing alto) did all we could to find a replacement. Thank God, my friend Amy C, FB me and asked me if I still needed to find someone to sing for me. She told me that she would be more than willing to fill in for me despite her being on team the following week. I had a good talk with her and she really seemed genuinely concerned for me. You see, she's been a surgical nurse for a long time. She told me honestly how she felt and felt that I should have stayed a day or two in the hospital due to the bone surgery and amount of blood lost. I could even tell in her voice she was just as frustrated as I was and she told me that at this point of recovery, I should not be going through this much pain and especially a set back in pain. Actually, my mom and dad was surprised I only had to go through the "office" surgery site instead of RMH, and it's not as good since there's always possibilities that something could go wrong and there is a possibility that they won't have the equipment to help in case (God forbid) goes wrong. It was comforting knowing that someone besides myself and my parents seemed it to be a bit "risky" for an office operation; but the practice was so convincing, we went ahead w/ plans, plus I found out that Dr. Smith doesn't have much privileges in RMH
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I am really feeling discouraged along with feeling much pain. I have to go to work but by mid day I feeling more fatigue then ever, even on light duty.
As of now, I just need to relax, do what I can and trust in God's provision. I told Burress that I may just need another month to recuperate. Hopefully by June I will be better. I just need prayer for endurance and restoration from pain.
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