God's Grace; My Faith

For the past 3 weeks, I have been going through pretty severe head/neck pain.  It's been discouraging because sometimes Vicodin didn't work.  What is challenging for me is my sleeping position.   You see, I have a hospital bed (I like to call it an "elevated" bed); that I have for my breathing issues.  It helps me to sleep elevated to ease my breathing, so that I don't get a breathing attack (where I stop breathing) if my head isn't raised up.   However, now with my head/neck  issues, being raised up, actually hurts my head more. *sigh*.   I'm trying to compromise  my sleeping position by lowering the head a little and sleeping on two pillows; which helps some, but it's still pretty painful at nights. I take my Vicodin at night before I sleep and sometimes my relaxant medication as well.  It's just been tough.

Sometimes I feel there is just too much going on in my life.  Things such as old unexplained pain, new unexplained pain, surgeries, new doctor referrals, new medical tests, etc.  I'm tired of it. So. Tired. It gets so frustrating, and it gets depressing. I do get irritated at times, and I get angry, and I cry.  

But, then, I am reminded of God's grace; and of God's love through the love of family and friends; I am reminded through His Word, and through many songs I listen to (such as the song below).   I am reminded to keep my faith in God and to strive to focus and keep my heart and eyes fixed on Him. Because it's not how much we can handle; it's whether or not we CHOOSE to trust in God in those many trials we go through.



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