Overdue Post and Other Updates
This post is going to cover lots of things including a quick overview of the Women's Conference I went to with my friend, Gina on September 14th as well as some other updates.
As mentioned, I had the privilege to go to W.Va to hear an outstanding speaker, Beth Moore speak at a Women's Conference. You never know what the topic is about until you get there. It was an AMAZING experience, despite some mishaps along the way ( though it was quite frustrating and irritating, we both agreed it was worth the trip). I was still not feeling well with my walking pneumonia and chronic pain, but with medication, I was able to pull through. Worship in Song was phenomenal. Travis and his band did an outstanding job in leading us in worship; We started out with the Doxology and ended with Our God is Greater. All songs fit so well with what God laid on Beth's heart to share with us. Some of the songs, I just could not sing; I had to just stand there and soak up the words with my heart. There were times I thought to myself "I wish I had more room and I wish I didn't wear this mini dress, so I can just get down on my knees and pray this song!" (esp when we sang "Bless the Lord O My Soul" and "Everlasting God").
Beth spoke about the "No Longer" in our lives needs to be turned over to God. I was dumbfounded at first when I saw this title. The example she gave was: " 'No Longer" .... (do I hold on to .....< fear, resentment, hostility, etc>). I understand this line of thinking. Do you? Where am I going with this? Keep reading:
These past few weeks have been particularly and extremely rough on me. My pain level has been on the rise again as well. It's been rough, friends....so rough. As I go through this season in my life, I keep praying for answers; I write in my journal about my pain so that I can have a record to share with my pain clinic doctor(s) and my neurologist. I am reminded of my heart's longings of the many "no longers" in my life. For me..... I NO LONGER want to feel restless, despondent, frustrated, etc from my chronic pain in my abdominal area, and my daily head pain.
These past couple of weeks, my pain has been so immense that I can barely get out of bed or do anything during the week, but lay down; sometimes I find myself in a guilt trap when I can't find the strength to go to church, even if someone takes me! There are times, I can't even get in the car and drive to the drug store or drive to PT myself in fear of my own safety. The head pain has been worse more these past 10 days and my abdominal pain affects me as well; but it's the head pain that scares me the most. Pain medication helps only a little.....sometimes even sleep is affected. It's just been a rough 10 days. I'm thankful for all my doctors though.....and especially for the GREAT Physician!
I struggle daily with a heart fully believing there is such a thing as not having any "no longers". I'm not saying I don't agree with what Beth was sharing with us at the conference; but it shed a light to me in an aspect I didn't expect to see. I knew of this concept but it was concept my heart *knew* but needed a reminder. That reminder was that we all can have an idea/heartfelt desire for a "no longer" in our lives; but it always boils down to several things:
So, my Hope is built on nothing less than in the Lord.
Pain is so very Very VERY tough
But you know what? GOD is TOUGHER!
As mentioned, I had the privilege to go to W.Va to hear an outstanding speaker, Beth Moore speak at a Women's Conference. You never know what the topic is about until you get there. It was an AMAZING experience, despite some mishaps along the way ( though it was quite frustrating and irritating, we both agreed it was worth the trip). I was still not feeling well with my walking pneumonia and chronic pain, but with medication, I was able to pull through. Worship in Song was phenomenal. Travis and his band did an outstanding job in leading us in worship; We started out with the Doxology and ended with Our God is Greater. All songs fit so well with what God laid on Beth's heart to share with us. Some of the songs, I just could not sing; I had to just stand there and soak up the words with my heart. There were times I thought to myself "I wish I had more room and I wish I didn't wear this mini dress, so I can just get down on my knees and pray this song!" (esp when we sang "Bless the Lord O My Soul" and "Everlasting God").
Beth spoke about the "No Longer" in our lives needs to be turned over to God. I was dumbfounded at first when I saw this title. The example she gave was: " 'No Longer" .... (do I hold on to .....< fear, resentment, hostility, etc>). I understand this line of thinking. Do you? Where am I going with this? Keep reading:
These past few weeks have been particularly and extremely rough on me. My pain level has been on the rise again as well. It's been rough, friends....so rough. As I go through this season in my life, I keep praying for answers; I write in my journal about my pain so that I can have a record to share with my pain clinic doctor(s) and my neurologist. I am reminded of my heart's longings of the many "no longers" in my life. For me..... I NO LONGER want to feel restless, despondent, frustrated, etc from my chronic pain in my abdominal area, and my daily head pain.
These past couple of weeks, my pain has been so immense that I can barely get out of bed or do anything during the week, but lay down; sometimes I find myself in a guilt trap when I can't find the strength to go to church, even if someone takes me! There are times, I can't even get in the car and drive to the drug store or drive to PT myself in fear of my own safety. The head pain has been worse more these past 10 days and my abdominal pain affects me as well; but it's the head pain that scares me the most. Pain medication helps only a little.....sometimes even sleep is affected. It's just been a rough 10 days. I'm thankful for all my doctors though.....and especially for the GREAT Physician!
I struggle daily with a heart fully believing there is such a thing as not having any "no longers". I'm not saying I don't agree with what Beth was sharing with us at the conference; but it shed a light to me in an aspect I didn't expect to see. I knew of this concept but it was concept my heart *knew* but needed a reminder. That reminder was that we all can have an idea/heartfelt desire for a "no longer" in our lives; but it always boils down to several things:
- God needs to always be in the center of this plan
- While on Earth, no plan is going to be perfect, until we reach to Heaven
- COME, Jesus, COME
So, my Hope is built on nothing less than in the Lord.
Pain is so very Very VERY tough
But you know what? GOD is TOUGHER!
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