Grace, Hope, Providence, ABBA

One thing I love about being a part of the Worship Team is that we get to learn new songs and teach the congregation the songs.    I LOVE singing hymns that have different tunes to them.   One of the songs we have been teaching the congregation is "God Moves (In a Mysterious Way)".  The tune and adaptive words from Sovereign Grace is beautiful.   Of course, I grew up on the traditional Hymnal tune (yes, I grew up Baptist!)  I have a mini book, you can call it a pamphlet called "Behind a Frowning Providence" by John Murray and go to it every now and then when I'm in need of reminders of God's grace and mercy.

Todd's sermon was very moving yesterday.  God's timing was perfect for me to hear the words I needed to hear.   I was SO THANKFUL that the nursery workers were settled in and I was able to sit in to hear the sermon.  What a blessing.  I needed to hear God's message through Todd

 I have grown to enjoy and really cling to the song "God Moves" for most of my adult life; that is, when I became a Christian.  I still firmly believe it is this song that helps me get through the day and  helps me say "if I can have a life of no pain and no more surgeries, I don't want it" Why you ask?  Because I don't know where or what/who I'd be if I didn't go through what I have or continue to go through.   God has a purpose behind this, and I may not know it here on earth and when I get to Heaven, I won't care to know why!.   Sometimes in the midst of my pain or when there are no  answers to the questions of all this chronic pain, there are a lot of frustrations.  By human behavior, I give up hope.  I cry, I stomp my feet. I get irritated, I get frustrated ( July 10, 2012)  Then I remember the words to the song.   Behind a frowning providence, He hides a smiling face.      But.........

..........then, there are times, when I want to do something  (August 4, 2013), thinking, God had a hand in this; only to have it taken away from me.  "Wait, God, weren't YOU the one who was tugging  my heart to go there?".  *sigh*    Another form of grieving I never knew one could experience October 24, 2013.  I was reflecting on this when Todd reminded me (in his sermon) that  He is gracious in the dark times and dark moments.  He makes HOPE possible;  He understands what we don't understands   Todd hit it on the nail....that's so true.  He drove it home and gave me that much needed reminder.

And at the end of the service, I am reminded that Blessings come in so many ways....


God's grace is sufficient for me.
 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Decision, Goodbyes, True Healer

  EIGHT  MONTHS---REALLY? I n many ways, I can barely grasp that I have been on this chemo medication for 8 months already.   This means, I   had 9 visits with the oncologists, 9 blood draws,   4 ECHOs, 4 EKGS, 3 neuro-ophthalmology exams,   and 3 MRIs (related to my chemo drug—it includes initial baseline check, one in May, and one just recently on August 25 th which went much smoother).   I actually had a 4 th one but it’s unrelated to the chemo drug, but still related to my disorder).      If you remember from my previous posts, the chemo meds has been really hard on my body; there were so many times I really wondered how much longer I could endure the “fire” on my scalp, or the pain in my legs.    Back in July, the pain in my scalp, face started to get extremely bad.   After completing my 21 day cycle/28 day cycle, we noticed that even with my usual scheduled one-week break from the medication, my sores continued t...
Read more

Thankful for Pastors in our Midst----

It's past 2:45 AM and I'm still awake. I've been awake since 9a.m. without any naps which is unusual for me. I've been in my bed since 11pm and I can't seem to shut my mind off.  There's so much going on in my heart and my mind that I can't seem to just "turn off"  It has relatively little to do with the amount of physical pain I'm in tonight nor does it have little to do with upcoming medical procedures.  I just have a lot on my mind.  Some good things; some sad things; so praiseworthy things, some heart wrenching things, etc. Today for all you VA folks, know how blistering cold it was today; I have to be extra careful about not getting sick due to my low immunity; plus with my horrible pain scale today, I just couldn't make it to church.  I wanted to make it to either the early morning service or the Thanksgiving service my church had to night combined with the formal Installation Service of the official (should I say "dubbing??...
Read more

In My Need I Seek Your Help.......

Image
There hasn’t been a huge change in things regarding my health since my last update/blog post.    My pain management doctor has tried a different form of non-steroid/non medication injection (for my abdominal pain) that seems to help some (to be explained later in the post).   It may need to take a few tries to see if this treatment works; that is, if I decide if I want to continue this kind of treatment.   As for my head pain and neck pain, my neurologist is doing all he can for now with medication therapy; and working along with my pain management doctor who is holding off other forms of treatment until he can slow down things with my abdominal pain.   In the meantime, I get some relief by going to my chiropractor/kinetic energy doctor in town.   I continue to be grateful for the doctors I have –those who are not giving up on me and trying very hard to try to find a solution to the cause of all this pain.   So far, my pain man...
Read more